There is a dangerous belief circulating in many spiritual spaces that if a relationship is “karmic” or part of a soul contract, you are somehow meant to endure it no matter the cost.

That if someone is in your life for a spiritual lesson, suffering through their mistreatment must therefore be noble.

I do not agree with that teaching, and neither does Mother Mary.

For this month’s transmission, I brought her a question many people ask when they start to become aware of soul contracts and how their difficult relationships, whether that is with a partner, a parent, friends, it doesn’t matter.. how those relationships are supposed to be navigated.

How do you know if a painful relationship is a soul contract refining you… or a bondage you are meant to leave?

Inside this transmission she talks about why not every soul contract is meant to be maintained forever, the difference between refinement and destruction in difficult relationships, how to discern whether someone is mirroring your wounds or actively harming you, why compassion and forgiveness do not require self-abandonment.

Mother Mary’s perspective on leaving relationships that no longer align with your soul is this:

“Some relationships may polish the stone that you are. But they are not supposed to crack you in half.”

This is one of the clearest messages I have received from her on boundaries, self-respect, and spiritual discernment.

If you have ever struggled with confusion around whether to stay, leave, forgive, endure, or trust your intuition in a painful relationship, this transmission is for you.

ps: I am offering a members-only channeling service that is not available on my website.

The channeled message from Mary & the members-only channeling service are available below the paywall.

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May feels like the first real exhale after months of compression.

The image that kept coming through as I tuned into this month was simple:
the lid coming off the pressure cooker.

Many of us have spent the past several months in a state of compression, clarity, nervous system fatigue, and forced confrontation with what can no longer be tolerated.

In this month’s energy update we break down what that pressure has been preparing us for, why the second half of May may feel noticeably lighter, and how to work with the release rather than resist it.

What’s covered in the 38‑minute energy update

• Why May feels like a collective exhale after months of compression

• The “pressure cooker” metaphor and what it represents energetically

• How April forced clarity around what can no longer be tolerated

• Why the body has become a stronger compass for discernment

• The energetic significance of Pluto retrograde in May

• Why the second half of May may feel notably lighter than the first

• Venus and Jupiter in Cancer and the themes of healing/nourishment

• Nervous system fatigue before expansion

• Why manifestation through force is no longer sustainable

• Dragon guidance for the month

• Golden Atlantean themes and why Atlantean trauma is resurfacing

• The connection between May’s energy and Akashic / soul memory work

• Aramaic insight into “the kingdom of heaven is within”

• Guidance for working with the body as an intuitive compass

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You are able to watch about 13 minutes of this energy update.

I hope you enjoy this message and that it resonates, and if you would like to watch the full 38 minute video, consider signing up for the Maryam Magazine for $8/month at the bottom of this page.

ps: Maryam members receive exclusive membership pricing for any personalized readings or audios/mentorship!

Watch a few more clips from the full update here:

Re-awakening Atlantean gifts in the new Golden Age:

The repair phase is here after nervous system fatigue:

A course that changes everything:

For any personalized readings or audios/mentorship, find all info

on my website

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The animal that came through for this month's channeled message for the Maryam Membership is the squirrel.

I am here in this big treehouse that is built right by where I live. I live on a piece of property that has a whole lot of cool stuff right in the middle of nature. It’s in the middle of the mountain forests in Colorado. So whenever I want to connect to the animals, I know, I only have to walk a short distance, and I’m already exposed to many animals.

I live in the middle of the trees. I am one with the trees is what you could say. The trees outnumber the humans that live in this area!

The squirrels and the birds absolutely outnumber the humans that live here.

And that is why it’s always so interesting to walk around and see what the animals have to share with me.

It’s also not a coincidence that I’m in the middle of writing my animal book, The Galactic Animal Blueprint, as I am being exposed to so many animal consciousnesses that are guiding me through this process with their expertise and their soul knowledge.

So as I started walking today right out of my house, I exit my driveway. I walk, and I’m in the middle of a dirt road. I take the first exit to the left, and I’m in the middle of just rocks and trees, and what I found here… is this big amazing treehouse!

The people that live here in the immediate area are allowed to explore here. But for anybody that doesn’t live here, this is private property. So I realize how extremely privileged I am to be able to live here…

And I was placed here very deliberately, after being a wanderer, or a nomad for a handful of years. This is the place where we will be staying, because of the animal connection that is clearly wanting to come to the forefront.

And of course, you know I talk a lot about “The Mary’s”. I talk a lot about Anna, Gnosticism, the dragons, and it’s all interwoven.

It is all one and the same; being here with nature, with all the animals, is being fully embodied in this Essene-Druid essence that I carry with me from lifetime to lifetime, from star system to star system and experience to experience.

The animals are close allies to us humans. But they’re also close allies to the dragons. The dragon is the beam that connects all dimensions and types of consciousness. The dragon is the ultimate home of the human galactic blueprint and of the animal galactic blueprint.

If you have not checked out those book chapters, they are over on The Golden Dragon Temple, where you can join also and become a member for only $9. And you can get this book month by month as it unfolds.

So back to the animal that wants to come through today.

I started out on my walk.. seeing a few magpies and wondering if they were gonna be the ones to provide today’s message? They have been flying around a lot here lately.

But then I started noticing the squirrel everywhere, popping up in my oracle decks every day when I pulled cards, running out in front of me as I leave the house for a little walk. Different types of squirrels, too; light brown bushy ones, smaller black squirrels, all kinds of different ones.

And it immediately reminded me of one of my very first channeled portraits that I made for somebody in 2018. After embracing art again as a way to express myself, I started connecting my psychic abilities with my artistic skills.

This beautiful squirrel; and I still distinctly remember the message that came through for that person.

It is: be resourceful, be creative, be flexible and be open to the unknown.

And by leaning into that flexibility, you are going to see how more opportunities open up for you than you ever thought were possible.

- Free subscribers: Here are some beautiful quotes from this month’s animal message that follows below under the paywall, that I would like to share with you:

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Another Seraphim news report delivered to you by the Golden Dragons..

Each month I share a short channeled message from the Golden Seraphim Dragons. These messages are meant to help you orient yourself within the energetic landscape of the month ahead and to remind you that you are not navigating these changes alone.

This month the Golden Dragons talk about a significant shift toward grounding and self-leadership that’s we will be noticing in our lives. After months of movement and shifting, the current energy encourages us to anchor our physical body and grow “roots” into the planet.

A primary theme this month is the “collapse of tolerance,” where the physical body becomes less willing to cooperate with anything misaligned.

• time to anchor energy downward into the planet and grow “roots”

• step into leadership positions in your own life

• the need to distinguish between a “real yes” from the soul and actions forced by the mind for the sake of comfort or safety

• working with elemental dragons

• embodied action that follows intuition

• clarity and life force returning when things are surrendered to God

The full channeled message, along with reflection questions for homework, is available below for Maryam Members.

Here are a few great quotes from the channeled message:

If you want to listen to the complete Golden Dragon news report, the full audio-recording is available for paid subscribers below.

when you sign up for the Maryam Membership, you also get access to the members chat, all archive posts in the magazine, monthly channeled messages by Mary, the dragons, the animals, and energy updates and extra articles that don’t appear anywhere else on my public platforms. members-only discounts and soon also tutorials and courses, AND my monthly Art alchemy Club; an intuitive painting class.

All for the price of $8/month, the price of 1 coffee at Starbucks.

If you feel called to go deeper..

Sometimes a message like this resonates because it is touching something very specific in your own life. While these monthly dragon messages are meant for the collective, many people feel a deeper curiosity about what the dragons, your soul records, guides.. might want to show them personally.

If you feel that nudge, there are a few ways we can dive in deeper:

Personal Guidance Sessions

Dragon Eye Portrait

Dragon Codes course

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In the last video, I spoke about something most people never really stop to think about. We will have thought about the theological side of it, but what about the physical, human reality of the crucifixion of Yeshua? And more importantly… the reality of a mother watching her son die in front of her.

I shared what that level of grief actually means. The kind of grief that Saint Bernardine of Siena once described as “so immense that, if divided among all living beings, it would destroy them instantly.”

And yet… she lived through it as a human being.. just like you, just like me..

So how did she do it? That is what we will be addressing in this month’s channeled message for the Maryam Magazine.

How do you live through something that feels like it should end you? How do you keep breathing when your body feels like it’s shutting down? How do you continue when your mind cannot imagine a future that feels normal and whole ever again?

We acknowledge the concept of her grief… but few people take a break and go deeper into the human side of Mary and what that would take to move through that type of experience.. And what that means for us today, trying to understand this process that she went through. Because if Mary was not different from us, as she herself reminds us a lot here in this membership, then her way of moving through grief is not something to admire from a distance and again reinforce this “immaculate” pristine far-away ideal, when all she wants to do is let us know that it is something that can be lived. Her ascension journey is not meant to keep us in a state of admiration, instead we can see her as a living breathing example of what each and every one of us is capable of.

What follows is a channeled message from Mother Mary where we learn all about that process..

This Maryam Magazine is my way of offering her teachings in a form that is accessible, grounded, and relevant to the exact times we are living in.

And every month, she will speak to the parts of us that are in the middle of our own crucifixion-and-resurrection cycles.

Every first week of the month, I’ll be releasing a channeled Q&A article with Mother Mary here on Substack as part of The Maryam Magazine. Each message comes with a reflection sheet you can work with throughout the month, a simple “homework” page to track how her guidance feels in your body, what it brings up, and how you can apply it to your everyday life and your own modern Mystery School initiations.

Some beautiful quotes from Mary’s channeled Q&A article today are:

“There is a moment in grief where you believe it will destroy you, where you feel paralyzed and your mind can no longer imagine a future that feels whole again.”

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“We remember God in happy moments, but even in moments of pain, sorrow, and grief, God is holding you through all of it, since it is God having a human experience through you and your suffering.”

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“I carried my grief one breath at a time; when the pain is too much, come back into your body and keep on breathing.”

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“Do not stop breathing, for your breath is a place where grief becomes survivable. You do not need to solve your grief, you need to just stay present inside of it without abandoning yourself.”

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“It is through the human experience of every single emotion that I obtained my physical ascension as Mary in that lifetime. You have been taught that spiritual strength means composure, when that is not the truth.”

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“There were moments where my heart broke in ways that no prayer could silence. Feeling the weight of your grief is where God meets you in your heart, and you see that God IS your heart.”

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“When you are in the middle of your grief, remember that God sees what you cannot see yet. That single allowance creates space where you allow God in and let grief come in to change you.”

You can find her full channeled message below.

+ coming up later this week in The Maryam Magazine is our guided meditation/prayer of the month! So check your inbox if you are a member, or subscribe below to get access to all this great stuff.

Join us below for $8/month and if you’re already a member, enjoy reading this month’s channeled message..

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If you have not yet read parts 1 and 2, then I recommend doing that first, as part 3 builds upon what was shared in parts 1 & 2.

In the opening of this “excavation series” with part 1, we moved beyond the traditional, institutionalized story of Mother Mary to take a look at her role as a living emanation of the Mother God. We looked at the “mysterious silence” in historical texts following the crucifixion, where we see that Mary was not necessarily the widow who quietly took a backseat in Ephesus, but we got to know her as what I jokingly (but kind of serious) called “the first true Gnostic nun”.

We looked at the “Twin Pillars” of the Feminine Christ field: Mary the Mother as the cosmic container and Mary Magdalene as the embodied initiate, and together with grandmother Anna, they anchored in a rose lineage that functioned as a stabilized divine intelligence, holding the spiritual field together after the rupture of the crucifixion.

The 2nd part traced how this underground female Christian movement moved westward, particularly into early Celtic Christianity. We dove into the places where this mysticism survived in the wells and water.. in the land itself despite attempts to erasure it completely. The water served as ancient archives of spiritual memory. Here, we saw Maryam as the “human well,” a portal through which the divine enters the material world. We looked at how these traditions honored the Earth as the true church, where the body and the land are sacred code-keepers of a lineage that institutions could not dismantle.

Here is part 1 again if you want to read it.

And part 2

So let’s dive a little deeper in part 3 with the dragons!

We stay close to the water connection from part 2.. With the Avalon ladies!

The Arthurian figures as Maryam vessels..

Now we have to talk about the figures everyone knows from legend but almost no one understands correctly: Viviane, Igraine, Morgan le Fay, and Arthur himself. Many people think these are simply fictional characters, but I’ve gotten to know them over the years as archetypal memory-carriers who have helped me a lot in my own life! And they all express different aspects of what Mary anchored into the Avalonian lands..

Viviane (also called Nimue) is usually portrayed as a sorceress, a seductress, a manipulator. Later Arthurian romance does her dirty but we’ve gotten used to that (winks at Maeve and Morgan Le Fay and Mary Magdalene..)

But in the older stories, Viviane represents the Mary-field localized. And we see a side of her that shows that she is she guardian of the barrier, the mists, the overseer of Avalon’s initiatory waters, the one who determines who may wield power.

She does what Mary does, she receives divine power, holds it without corruption, transmits it only to those who can serve it rather than use it.

This is why she gives Arthur the sword Excalibur. He is entrusted with it because he demonstrates the capacity to hold power without claiming ownership of it. And this is why, in the older tales, she also takes the sword back when Arthur fails his vows. She is the guardian of the Celtic Christian covenant made by the Marys when they arrived on Celtic soil!

Viviane is the Celtic expression of Marian consciousness, the feminine authority discerns through the heart and judges wisely.

Let’s move onto her sister Igraine..

Igraine is Arthur’s mother, often sidelined in the stories as just a plot device for Arthur’s conception (kind of like… Mary indeed). But she is critical to the story and her devotion is big, even though her role is often small in the sagas...

She is the womb-vessel through which the Avalon lineage & the feminine Christian frequency, and service-kingship (not domination-kingship) enter the world through her son Arthur. So Igraine carries on the Mary blueprint in crucial ways. Her womb is almost like it’s not personal property and it serves the greater good, the land.

ps: In the latest Art Alchemy Club session we worked with the Christ-Elven women, including some of the the Avalon women! It’s a fun and creative way to be open to a new way of channeling, through intuitive art.

Find it here🎨

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Remember the “void” I spoke about in January… and how February and early March were slowly guiding us out of it?

We are now past the equinox, and this is where things truly begin to sink in.

March was and is about learning how to see again after coming out of the fog. And now in April, that clarity becomes something you can actually move with.

The past few months there has been a very specific pattern unfolding, a slow refinement, a stripping away of identities, expectations, projections, and emotional patterns that were never truly yours. It may have seemed a bit blurry, or chaotic. But now we are reaching the point where that process can no longer stay internal. April is where things become undeniably clear for you.

The true beginning of the astronomical new year!

You will start to clearly feel what is no longer in alignment, in a very grounded, almost calm certainty type of way, not in a dramatic or overwhelming way, like you may have experienced in the past few months when you felt more guided to process internally.. The kind where you just know… this doesn’t work anymore, and this does, after sitting with it and alchemizing it within.. Hibernation is now over!

If March still felt like observing, processing, and slowly stepping into a new timeline… April is where that timeline starts to stabilize in your body.

This is also why you may notice physical releases, emotional waves, or shifts in relationships and habits, which is your system recalibrating to a level of clarity that simply does not tolerate misalignment anymore.

In this update, I walk you through what has been building since January, how March completed that transition out of the void, and what April is now asking of you as we move into a phase of embodied clarity, intuitive action, and grounded forward motion.

What’s covered in the 45‑minute energy update

• A recap of March’s energy

• The shift from inward processing to outward movement and readiness

• The theme of clarity becoming the dominant energy in April

• The “collapse of tolerance”

• Emotional neutrality as the new baseline

• Physical symptoms as energetic release & body clearing

• The body = your primary intuitive compass

• Forced action vs. aligned, effortless action

• Giving ideas to God and letting them return naturally

• Mercury retrograde integration & gaining clarity

• Emotional honesty & relationship dynamics

• Identity shedding

• Grounding, stability, & embodiment

• Creativity as a broad expression of joy

• Acting on ideas that were seeded earlier in the year

• A short exercise to feel alignment vs. misalignment

Free subscribers:

You are able to watch about 15 minutes of this energy update to get the gist of the energy that’s unfolding in this month.

I hope you enjoy this message and that it resonates, and if you would like to watch the full 45 minute video, consider signing up for the Maryam Magazine for $8/month at the bottom of this page.

ps: Maryam members receive exclusive membership pricing for any personalized readings or audios/mentorship!

Watch a few more clips from the full update here:

For any personalized readings or audios/mentorship, find all info

on my website

Maryam Magazine subscribers:

You are able to watch the full 45 minute energy update here, comment and share what’s been coming up for you, and share in our group chat here on Substack!

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The animal that came through for this month's channeled message for the Maryam magazine is the stingray.

This was not an animal that I saw coming a month ago.. But the water animals have been presenting themselves more and more, for me but also for several of my clients so it is a pattern that I am noticing.

I've always personally had a connection with all of the aquatic animals. I've always been very connected to the dolphins and the water, and whales.

And every single animal in its original origin comes from the dragon. I'm in the middle of working on a book all about the animals and their connection to all of these Celestial layers and all of the more physical layers and the instinct that they have and how that is connected to their soul blueprint, their galactic animal blueprint, and how we have pushed away a lot of our own connections to our own galactic animal blueprints.

Many of us have connections with the water animals from other lifetimes, many of us remember lifetimes where we were fully telepathic with these animals and where they were our allies in the water. Where we were more people and having full telepathic conversations with them and working with them in a spiritual way.

Mother Mary of course is closely connected to the water to the mermaid consciousness to the dolphins and whales. The Essenes in general have a close connection to water consciousness and baptism.

And I'm always open.. To be open.. ܐܬܦܬܚ in Aramaic is all about the feeling of allowing God in.. If I've used any Aramaic word of the most in my teachings, then it's going to be that word, the people who have been following the posts in the membership will by now be very familiar with this word.

So I'm always open to what animal wants to come through and I rarely know ahead of time what animal is going to be coming through in the beginning of the week when it's time to sit down and channel the message..

Last week, Rayan, my daughter, and I went to the aquarium. Some of you may know that I'm a photographer in my free time. So I enjoyed that visit a lot and spent a lot of my time in the aquarium taking pictures.

Each time that I am close to water, close to water animals, I feel my entire nervous system slowing down and I remember what it is like to live with them in the water..

My soul spontaneously travels back to lifetimes where we were all together as allies.

I posted a poll the other day and asked which of the following animals people wanted to hear a message from; the jellyfish, the seahorse, the stingray, or the sea turtle. I took some really beautiful pictures of all of them but there was one clear winner from the poll, and it was the stingray.

This was also my daughter's favorite and she spent a long time petting them at the aquarium. So I'm not surprised that intuitively people could sense that this was the messenger for this month.

There are two sides to a stingray, the name in itself of course reveals its nature.. But just like many animals who have a built-in defense mechanism they are often misunderstood and they have hidden aspects that are beautiful and that could teach us a lot of lessons about what it is like to live a balanced life and set boundaries.

A lot of the water animals go directly back to the dragon, I'll never forget an akashic records reading that I did about a year ago where I saw a man ride a gigantic manta ray in the water in Sirius. Not a stingray but a close relative..

- Free subscribers: Here are some beautiful quotes from this month’s animal message that follows below under the paywall, that I would like to share with you:

Want to dive deeper into understanding your own connection on a soul level with the animal allies in your life, or see where you have animal guides assisting you in your soul history?

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There’s some things that the New-Age movement gets right, but what it gets dangerously wrong, and why the most powerful thing you can do is get out of the way… is often brushed under the rug.

Most of what is being sold as manifestation right now is not alignment with God. It is the ego running a very sophisticated spiritual operation. And the reason it works as a sales concept is because it flatters us. It tells us we are powerful creators. It tells us we just need the right technique, the right frequency, the right morning routine. It tells us the dream life is available, we just need to want it correctly.

What it does not tell us is that the ego, which is directing this entire operation, went through a complete veil of forgetfulness the moment we were born. It does not remember why we came here. It does not know our soul’s contracts and purpose. It is working from a mirage of what it thinks is our blueprint.. and yet we are handing it the pen and asking it to design our lives.

I have worked with people at a high level for years now, and watched what happens when someone surrenders their attachment to a specific outcome and asks God to show them what they cannot see. The results are more specific, more precise, and more aligned with who that person actually is on a soul level than anything they would have scripted on their own.

That is why I love working with the Golden Seraphim Dragons, because they are great at supporting timeline shifts and “burning away illusions to illuminate the truth” for us..

Surrender is not a passive posture, it sounds a lot easier than it really is. It is the most disciplined spiritual act there is, because it requires you to override the ego every single day. There is a sort of cognitive dissonance happening in the New Age that nobody is talking about, a real contradiction.

Part of it is genuinely rooted in God, in surrender, in trust, in the understanding that there is a higher intelligence guiding things. But another part, and this is the part that gets the most support and praise.. teaches something that is the total opposite. It teaches that you are the sole architect of your reality. That you must vision board it, script it, feel it as real, hold the frequency, protect your energy from doubt, and mentally occupy your desired outcome until it materialises. That if it has not arrived yet, you are not doing it correctly enough.

That is anxiety and a need to control God repackaged as empowered spiritual practice. Let’s look at what’s underneath though.. Underneath it is a belief that God cannot be trusted, that unless you control the outcome yourself, something will go wrong. But the ego does not know what your dream life looks like through the eyes of an all loving Mother/Father God.

Here is the thing about vision boards: they are built entirely from what the ego can imagine. And the ego can only imagine what it has already been exposed to: culture, comparison, desire, fear. It cannot access what your soul actually came here to experience. It cannot see what God has prepared for you that is completely outside the frame of what you currently believe is possible.

I am not against ambition or beauty or wanting a life that feels expansive and alive. What I am saying is that the ego’s version of that.. the curated, controlled, mapped-out version, is almost always smaller than what God actually has in mind. It is a mirage. It looks like clarity. It feels like vision. But it is the ego working with limited data and calling it a dream.
The question is not: how do I manifest what I want? The question is: am I willing to receive what God knows I need?

That’s where being open to being in fluid alignment with God will always bring you more soul-nourishing abundance than any vision board can..

Some examples from my own life are various relationship fails because they were NOT in alignment with what God saw for me as my highest timeline and soul union, family dynamics with my children that my ego did NOT agree with but that God knew were in everyone’s highest alignment, so that my children can also fulfill their soul purpose. Jobs that fell through (that looked good on paper) because they were NOT in God’s plan for me. and many more examples.. You can fight these shifts, or be open to what God has in store for you by simply stepping out of your own way..

Let’s look at what surrender actually produced when I fully let it happen…

After a few years in Spain I didn’t know what was next for me and I returned to Belgium, where I am originally from, after years in the US, and a few years back in Belgium, then a few years in Spain.. I found myself going back to a country where I always felt numbed, I just did not see myself ever living there again. Yet there I was, going back because I was listening to God. It seemed like I was going backwards but I knew that trusting would help me to be open to what steps were going to come next.. After 6 months there I knew I had to leave again but I had no idea what would follow…

After a year and a half of wandering the US and living a nomadic lifestyle, which most of that was with /Rayan, my husband. And both of us choosing every day again to be open to what God wanted us to see, every day, releasing, surrendering into the openness which is not the same as just aimlessly wandering, it’s tuning in deep, every single day, asking to be shown how we could align ourselves with God every day, rather than trying to make God fit into our plan like fitting a square peg into a round hole. And that sometimes means going against what we would have liked to do, but it always results into even deeper alignment with Mother/Father God and an easier and easier time tuning into the “God-plan”!

I did not sit down with a journal and describe it. I did not build a vision board of hiking trails and mountain silence and pine trees and yet somehow also proximity to airports and shops, the right people close by, the perfect interior and nature access, not even beginning to mention the soul family that is all located and revealing itself to us as we get more anchored into this area. I did not know to ask for those things in that combination.

It thinks in aesthetics it has already seen. But God knew where my soul path needed to lead me so together Rayan and I stepped out of our own way to let God show the path..

The ego works from a mirage of a blueprint.. not a true soul impression, it doesn’t have access to the full picture.

Surrender is simply choosing who to trust with the pen that writes your book of life..

There is a fine line between “prayer” and “spellwork”.. I have spoken about this at length because the distinction matters more than most people realize. There is a thin line between manifestation as prayer and manifestation as spellwork, the New-Age does not care for this too much but that’s why you’re here reading this.. because you know that I’m that person who is too Christian for the New-Age and too esoteric for Religious Christianity, so let’s do it the way of the early mystics who knew this all too well, aligning and being open to the path that God sees for you..

What does that mean when we look at those words through a gnostic lens? Being opened..

John 9:10 - ܐܳܡܪܺܝܢ ܠܶܗ ܐܰܝܟ݁ܰܢܳܐ ܐܶܬ݂ܦ݁ܰܬ݁ܰܚ ܥܰܝܢܰܝܟ݁

(KJV) Therefore said they unto him, How were thine eyes opened?

John 9:26 - ܐܳܡܪܺܝܢ ܠܶܗ ܬ݁ܽܘܒ݂ ܡܳܢܳܐ ܥܒ݂ܰܕ݂ ܠܳܟ݂ ܐܰܝܟ݁ܰܢܳܐ ܦ݁ܰܬ݁ܰܚ ܠܳܟ݂ ܥܰܝܢܰܝܟ݁

(KJV) Then said they to him again, What did he to thee? how opened he thine eyes?

John 9:32 - ܡܶܢ ܥܳܠܰܡ ܠܳܐ ܐܶܫܬ݁ܰܡܥܰܬ݂ ܕ݁ܦ݂ܰܬ݁ܰܚ ܐ݈ܢܳܫ ܥܰܝܢܶܐ ܕ݁ܣܰܡܝܳܐ ܕ݁ܶܐܬ݂ܺܝܠܶܕ݂

(KJV) Since the world began was it not heard that any man opened the eyes of one that was born blind.

If you read the story of the blind man in John 9 carefully, there is a phrase that keeps repeating: his eyes were opened. The people around him keep asking the same question over and over: “How were your eyes opened?”

They want the method. They want the formula. They want to understand what technique produced the miracle. But the story shows that the blind man did not manifest sight, his eyes were opened. Something outside of his egoic control intervened and revealed a reality he could not access on his own. And that is exactly the difference between spiritual control and spiritual surrender.

When the ego is running the operation, we are constantly trying to ask how we can force reality to match our expectations.

But when someone begins walking with God in truth, the question becomes:
“Am I open to having my eyes opened to something I cannot yet see?”

To be open.. ܐܬܦܬܚ in Aramaic is all about the feeling of allowing God in.. Which is a practice that will ask you to step out of the way so God has the space to become the writer of your life-story..

The people this resonates with are not beginners in their spiritual walk. They are people who have done the work, tried the techniques, and felt the nagging that something central was missing. They are looking for the return to something real after going through method after method.

This is the work I do with people. We work on simply aligning you with Mother/Father God, in cooperation with the Golden Seraphim Dragons, back to trust, back to the version of you that is operating from soul rather than from ego strategy.

God already knows what you need. The question is whether you are willing to stop arguing with that.

There are different ways to work with me. And if you’re not sure what’s best for you, don’t hesitate to reach out and give me some context so that I can help you fine-tune what you may need in this moment.

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AND being a part of my membership; the Maryam Magazine, is a great way to get started every month too!

The Aramaic word used in this story for “opened” does not simply mean that something suddenly becomes visible. It carries the sense of allowing something to open that you could not force open yourself.

For the Maryam Members, I’ve included a short contemplative practice with this word below. It’s a simple exercise to experience what it feels like to step out of control and let your perception open instead.

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Another Seraphim news report delivered to you by the Golden Dragons..

Each month I share a short channeled message from the Golden Seraphim Dragons. These messages are meant to help you orient yourself within the energetic landscape of the month ahead and to remind you that you are not navigating these changes alone.

January and February asked many people to slow down, observe, and conserve energy. For some, it felt like moving through fog, waiting for clarity that didn’t seem to arrive. According to the dragons, that phase of observation is now shifting as March marks the beginning of movement again.

As we enter the astronomical spring and the energetic start of a new cycle of growth, the Golden Seraphim Dragons speak about remembering our connection to them, calling on their perspective, and allowing them to lift us into a higher vantage point when things feel overwhelming.

This month may bring revelations, emotional clearing, and the resurfacing of old cycles that are ready to close. But rather than seeing this as chaos, the dragons describe it as part of a larger remembering of the true self.

• The energetic transition into March as a month of clarity, revelation, and forward movement
• The connection between the Seraphim dragons and the life-force energy of spring and renewal
• Why the dragons encourage people to actively call on them for perspective and guidance
• How asking for the dragons’ perspective can help you see situations from a higher vantage point
• A short breath practice to receive the golden Seraphim frequency combined with some Aramaic toning.
• How old fears, identities, and illusions may surface briefly so they can finally dissolve
• Why the seeds planted earlier in the year are now beginning to form visible buds and new timelines
• Why this month is ultimately about rebuilding a new foundation aligned with your true self

The full channeled message, along with reflection questions for homework, is available below for Maryam Members.

Here are a few great quotes from the channeled message:

If you want to listen to the complete Golden Dragon news report, the full recording is available for paid subscribers below.

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If you feel called to go deeper..

Sometimes a message like this resonates because it is touching something very specific in your own life. While these monthly dragon messages are meant for the collective, many people feel a deeper curiosity about what the dragons, your soul records, guides.. might want to show them personally.

If you feel that nudge, there are a few ways we can dive in deeper:

Personal Guidance Sessions

Dragon Eye Portrait

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Another month and another message from Mother Mary..

The questions that we dive into in this article together with her are the following:

“Is there a cost to remembering you correctly? What does someone lose when they walk with you in truth?”

Another question is: “How do men fit into the restoration of the feminine Christ line? Are they sidelined or required?”

These monthly messages are channeled from Mother Mary, spoken in response to questions that many people are holding right now.

As you all will know by now.. We interact here with Mary as a living blueprint for what it means to mother oneself back to wholeness, she isn’t the silent icon on a pedestal that we see in Christian iconography. This month’s transmission is all about walking in "truth," and we often focus on what we will gain: peace, clarity, and connection. But as Maryam reveals in this message, truth has a high entry fee. To remember her correctly is to remember ourselves correctly, and that process requires a structural demolition of the false narratives we’ve lived in for a lifetime.

This message is for those who are no longer satisfied with devotional imagery of a passive Mary. It is for those who sense that restoring her is about confronting what has been minimized in ourselves. Maryam challenges us to look at the “Christos” as a prism where the masculine and feminine polarities meet instead of the gendered battleground it has become. Whether you are healing from the erasure of the feminine in traditional religion or the reactionary isolation of the New Age, this message serves as an invitation to stop building “fables” and start building a foundation that is actually strong enough to live in in the real world where men and women simply interact and are wanting to connect in a healthy way.

Prepare to lose your illusions; prepare to find your footing.

This Maryam Magazine is my way of offering her teachings in a form that is accessible, grounded, and relevant to the exact times we are living in.

And every month, she will speak to the parts of us that are in the middle of our own crucifixion-and-resurrection cycles.

Every first week of the month, I’ll be releasing a channeled Q&A article with Mother Mary here on Substack as part of The Maryam Magazine. Each message comes with a reflection sheet you can work with throughout the month, a simple “homework” page to track how her guidance feels in your body, what it brings up, and how you can apply it to your everyday life and your own modern Mystery School initiations.

Some beautiful quotes from Mary’s channeled Q&A article today are:

“When someone chooses to walk with me in truth, you will start to see where you have not been given credit where credit was due. Where you have been disrespected or minimized, where your light was not recognized. And that could be the cost of remembering me correctly, because you will remember yourself correctly.”

“What you lose when you walk in truth with me, is opinions of other people. It is stories and projections of other people, that they have put on to you, it is false narratives, it is illusions. That is what you will have to give up. That is the cost of remembering me correctly.”

“The masculine is the protector of the feminine and the feminine is the fuel of inspiration for the masculine. Feminine Christ and masculine Christ are simply 2 sides of the same coin. Both have to come together in the middle of the crystal; the Christos prism, in the crystalline frequency, where both connect.”

”The women in Gnostic traditions value the masculine know that men carry the blueprint within them of protection, safety, and providership. Just like the men in Gnostic traditions value the feminine, they know that women carry the blueprint within them of nurturing, acceptance and joyful inspiration, and receptivity. To isolate one from the other is a fable and not reality.”

You can find her full Q&A article below.

To see the entire monthly structure of The Maryam Magazine, go here:

You can find this month’s Q&A+”homework” with Mary below.

+ coming up later this week in The Maryam Magazine is our guided meditation/prayer of the month! So check your inbox if you are a member, or subscribe below to get access to all this great stuff.

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Remember the void I spoke of in January’s energy update? And how we were slowly coming out of that in February? .. March is not just nature’s official spring, but also our individual spring! We are officially moving out of the fog.

January and February were not chaotic for no reason. There has been a very specific pattern unfolding which is a slow refinement, a spiral of clarity, a stripping away of fear-based identities and old karmic threads and we are now finalizing that.

If February felt intense, emotional, confusing, or even physically activating or challenging, this update will help you understand why + what’s waiting for you in March.

March is still not about rushing forward immediately, first we are going to be asked to start recognizing that we are already out of the void and that the new timeline is forming, first conceptually, then emotionally, and finally through aligned action…

In this video, I walk you through what has been building since late January and what is now shifting collectively as we move toward the spring equinox which is the true energetic new year.

What’s covered in the 51‑minute energy update

• • A recap of February’s themes and why the intensity was necessary
  • The “mental crucifixion and resurrection” energy many experienced
  • How hidden karmic cycles are surfacing for final resolution
  • The difference between fear programs and true intuitive nudges
  • Why March begins with inner clearing before outer action
  • The nervous system upgrade and increased physical sensitivity
  • Mercury retrograde, eclipses and collective decluttering
  • Stepping out of people-pleasing/light-dimming timelines
  • The rise of personal sovereignty and individuation
  • Passion, self-worth, and bold expression
  • The spring equinox as the true energetic new year + clarity unfolding
  • Moving from introversion to forward-moving action
  • Timeline shifts, karmic closures, and authentic identity stepping forward
  • Discernment around who you let into your process
  • A short Golden Dragon clearing exercise for karmic release

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You are able to watch about 16 minutes of this energy update to get the gist of the energy that’s unfolding in this month.

I hope you enjoy this message and that it resonates, and if you would like to watch the full 51 minute video, consider signing up for the Maryam Magazine below, for $8/month, at the bottom of this page. Maryam members get an extra opportunity to request personalized feedback based on this month’s energy.

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When I try to summarize what I do, and I try to put it all in boxes of “topics” it would look something like this: animal communication, akashic records, dragon work, working with parents & children, Gnostic storytelling & Aramaic toning, trauma healing, helping parents on their parenting and/or spirit baby journey, grief guidance, channeled artwork & painting sessions in group..

It sounds like many things when in reality it’s all just me expressed through many life situations.

I work with the web that holds it all together beneath the surface of what it may present like as a “topic” to pick… It all flows together in my brain and in my soul. what it all comes down to, whether that is expressed in you wanting to access your akashic records and I help you, you wanting to connect to your spirit baby and call them in, whether that is learning how to trust again after trauma and abuse… it all comes down to the same thing and that is that I work with the place where your internal compass stopped being reliable, and I help you restore it in my Gnostic 1-on-1 counseling journeys.. What does that even mean? It’s simply guiding you to connect to your inner Gnosis.. and it can look like this:

The woman at the crossroads..

A woman once came to me in her 40’s. She had been married for years to the love of her life. And everything was collapsing… A friend of hers recommended me to her because she knew I had “been through some stuff”, so she reached out to me.. She was awakening spiritually and expanding and questioning her reality, her intuition, what is real and what is illusion.. And at the same time, she was grieving the potential loss of her marriage, her identity, her role as wife and mother, when she noticed energy shifting within her marriage, all of it was happening simultaneously. She started to realize that she suffered from an anxious attachment style and that she didn’t really know who she was outside of the marriage she had lived inside for decades, and now that that was in danger, she had no clue who she was! And that was a very scary thought..

She was older than me, and yet she would sometimes refer to me as a “spiritual mother.” guiding her through this process. While working with her and her husband I stayed neutral because no one was the villain in this story, not her, not her husband. We dove into everyone’s Soul Records, the entire family. We dove into attachment theory and healthy coping skills to energetically anchor her into her body, so that she would also feel intuition in her body, the body is your compass for your intuition.

So the body became the whole key on this journey for her..

When she spoke about separation, her stomach contracted, and when she imagined staying, her chest tightened. And when she imagined being alone, her nervous system went into alarm because she thought she needed to choose an outcome and have all the answers.

We worked together until she became secure enough in the knowing that there was no desired outcome necessary. that all that was necessary was her being okay with not being okay. She learned to feel the contraction without identifying with it. Which then resulted in a catalytic moment in her marriage that created a bond between them now that is stronger than ever, more solid than before this all occured. And a transparency and emotional security between them that was only able to manifest after they both looked at themselves and their attachment wounding, and then transparently and openly opened up to each other about this.

She is doing great, they are doing great, she sees clearly now where she was people-pleasing from anxious attachment and where she needs to have solid boundaries.

Conscious conception and the guardian pets who come first..

Another woman came to me because she wanted to consciously conceive her child, she knew there was “a baby” waiting, she could feel it, but why was the baby not coming into the physical despite trying for years? Her body was carrying doubt, fear, unprocessed wounds in the wombspace, our creative center.. from this lifetime and from past lives.

Simultaneously, she was deeply bonded with her animal companion, she was very telepathic with her dog, who had been behaving in ways that felt unusual and she wanted answers on that too... So we poured it all into 1 container.. telepathic contact in a non-verbal way.. instead of treating these as separate categories.

What was all connected was that her womb was a memory holder and her nervous system needed to go from contraction and being guarded to feeling expanded. There was unprocessed grief that had never been addressed.. it was shoved down into the body, into the womb..

So what did her dog have to do with this? He came into her life at the right time, orchestrated by God.. as a stabilizer and preparer, and with his anxiety mirrored her own freeze response..

Working with her was an interesting mix of dragon clearing work, grounding work, working with her body’s cycles and feeling intuition IN the body instead of high up above the head where many people still think intuition is felt.. This is how we spoke to the spirit baby AND her dog.. And the key was stabilizing her body before focussing on an outcome.

Breaking decades long of trauma bonds..

Another woman came to me after realizing that she was having a spiritual awakening, what people sometimes overlook is that a spiritual awakening isn't all fun, exciting and learning new things. It is all of those things too but it is also seeing back in time.. Seeing back in time to all the times where you were unaware or acting from an anxious or an avoidant attachment or fear or ancestral programming that was not necessarily healthy for you.

She began to see that her family dynamic was not loving but in fact very parasitic. And that realization alone will cause a person to go through a grieving process. So you can have a very euphoric experience, going through an awakening, and also grieve the old version of you, or the old versions of people who were your projections of them in your mind..

She had been the emotional regulator for everyone, the peacemaker, the compliant one, basically the doormat. So her higher self orchestrated this awakening for her to choose the initiation of fully choosing self-love. So together we dove into all of it, and we could also connect all of these dots back to her soul records where she’d had other incarnations with the same family members so this was a pattern that was being broken that had been ongoing for lifetimes.

For a decades she remained entangled, believing that loyalty meant self-erasure and that that was what you did for family.. And that was what “behaving right” looked like. But her body told a different story, because every family interaction triggered stomach tension, she had fatigue and felt drained after each interaction. And she had internalized unworthiness as her identity…

This is what trauma bonding looks like in families and it’s very hard to recognize because you’ve been in it basically since birth..

When she started working with me we didn’t demonize her family but we simply analyzed everything together, slowly, piece by piece and we studied the bonds to see where they hooked in and what her nervous system reacted to and why.. What part of her identity would die if she disengaged?

Over six slow and patient months we were able to rewire a lot of the programming by introducing grounding practices, again Golden Dragon clearing statements, body tracking, how does your body feel when you think of saying or doing xyz? And we integrated Gnostic teachings about what it means to be in energetic integrity.

She did not cut everyone off, but she did set clear boundaries and reduced access to herself because she couldn’t put herself through any more self-betrayal.

And the result of all of that work was that the static noice in the background faded away and that her intuition sharpened, she actually became “more psychic”, but what really happened is that all the noise in the background was erased so she could hear her own voice more clearly, and her energy stabilized. Even her abundance increased, all because she stopped leaking and letting her energy be siphoned..

That is what happens when trauma bonds dissolve.

“Trauma bonding” may sound dramatic but it’s a very simple neurological pattern..

When intensity has been paired with “love” or giving affection/attention, the nervous system encodes chaos as connection. Often when unpredictability shaped your childhood, calm can suddenly feel suspicious, you don’t trust it. And when compliance ensured survival, boundaries can feel dangerous if you don’t have any...

You can know someone is unhealthy and still feel magnetized to them because a toxic familiar environment feels safer still than a healthy unfamilar environment! It’s all neural conditioning. So with her.. we tracked the micro-second before override. That can look like the stomach contraction when the phone vibrates, holding your breath when you imagine saying no to that person, or even your chest tightening when stability feels “boring.”

We built tolerance for safety.

We blend stuff together..

When you work with me you get a lot of intuition-training, soul records work, channeling, but I always blend it with years of esoteric research. I have been immersing myself into the Aramaic language since 2021, I’ve done a lot of trauma psychology research, learned how to work with EMDR and somatic awareness through my own personal trauma healing journey after escaping an abusive marriage, subconscious imprinting, and historical distortion patterns.

All of it helps in healing and unfolding your Self on this spiritual journey ..

When someone says, “I should be over this,” I am not only hearing how they personally feel about this, the underlying inherited conditioning is what is coloring that statement.

Many people don’t realize that the majority of my work is not doing readings or one off sessions, but it’s working with long term clients..

I just don’t promote it as much.. Usually the people that will find out about the 1:1 longer term journeys they’ve been going through my website and they bump into it and sign up. I rarely really mention it

Many of my clients stay three months, six months, longer even… I have amazing clients that I first connected with years ago who are still with me now. And I love that because that created real lasting connections.

We start with 6 weeks and after that you can add 6 more weeks for a lower price, and 6 more.. It’s whatever you want.

Two six-week journeys with me are currently available.

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The animal that came through this month was the crow.. And I have to say.. I was walking and noticed it on my daily walk and was not surprised.. Because there’s something about the way a crow appears, you always stop for just a split second and notice it and there’s a sense of clarity that goes with it.. You watch it. It watches you. And in that moment, something shifts beneath the surface of your ordinary life. They are sharp, intelligent, purposeful. They shows up when something is happening inside you. And right now, for many, that something is about clarity. And if you have watched my February energy update:

You will remember that that was kind of the dominant energy of the whole update!

Pre-Christian societies understood this. They saw crows as messengers between worlds. Life and death. The seen and unseen. The conscious mind and everything swirling beneath it.

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- Free subscribers: Here are some beautiful quotes from this month’s animal message that follows below under the paywall, that I would like to share with you:

“The crow can be your watcher, and it can be your ally. Ask the crow to look at what in your life, you need to pay attention to? The crow is great at pulling you out of a daydream when you are not anchored in properly.”

“So where is it in your memory bank? There are treasures hidden that you may have forgotten about they say. Have you taken stuff for granted. That may be so precious and special that you tucked it away very far and forgot all about it because they’re trying to keep it safe?”

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If you have not yet read part 1, then I recommend doing that first, as part 2 builds upon what was shared in part 1.

Before we move into wells, living waters and saints, and before we go into part 3 next time with dragons, and the Pendragon-Avalon line, let’s briefly ground ourselves in what we uncovered in Part 1.

In Part 1, we stepped away from the dis-embodied, institutional version of Mary and began tracing the deeper transmission of the Maryam lineage. We looked at the historical silence around her after the crucifixion and looked at what that silence actually represented? And we found that emptiness doesn’t necessarily mean “nothing”, it’s another layer, an initiation..

Instead of a grieving widow and mother fading into obscurity, we looked at Maryam as the first true “Gnostic nun”, a living emanation of the Mother-field who stabilized the incarnation after the rupture of the crucifixion. How Mother Mary & Magdalene formed the twin pillars of the Feminine Christ field, Mary the Mother as the cosmic container, Mary Magdalene as embodied initiatory Sophia, and Anna as the ancestral matriarchal root of the rose lineage.

Together, they anchored a transmission that institutional Christianity could not control. From there, we traced how that transmission moved west.

We looked at early Celtic Christianity before Roman consolidation, a form of Christ-devotion without centralized hierarchy, without a pope, without male-exclusive authority. A spirituality woven into seasons, land, resurrection as a natural and cyclical pattern of mother nature, a cosmology where the body was sacred, where women led, where Maryam was a living embodiment of what devotion through matter looks like.

If resurrection is cyclical, if incarnation means that matter, the physical, the body becomes sacred by embedding it with God-frequency.. if feminine embodiment is structurally necessary to divine expression, then empires such as the Roman one had to get rid of it..

So Rome restructured the narrative, which is nothing you didn’t already know if you’re here reading this article. It absorbed Celtic saints while draining their mysticism. It turned Magdalene into scandal and Mary into passive obedience.

Rome tried their best to erase what they couldn’t control.. But not everything was erased. Because what Rome could dismantle structurally, it could not extract from the land itself.

And that is where we begin Part 2. In the survival layer such as the wells, the living waters…

Here is part 1 again if you want to read it.

PART 2

The survival layer: wells, saints, & living waters.

Rome could burn books. They could execute heretics. They could rewrite history and origin stories. They could silence women and dismantle feminine monasteries, But they couldn’t destroy the wells that were property of Mother Earth herself..

These ancient wells were a part of the land and were older than any civilization that lived there can remember. And when the early Gnostic Christians settled in Britain and Ireland, it honored and recognized the element of water and recognized the wells as sacred archives and memory banks.

Mother Earth was the true Celtic Church, all her elements were the sacred code-keepers of her message to us.

In Marian-Avalonian Christianity, the primary sacrament was living water. Those who listened to my Yohannan the immerser meditation will have experienced a very quantum-alchemical experience with the water. Water as magic! Water as a way to connect with Mother-Father God! That is indeed how important water was to the early Christians..

In Celtic and Germanic pagan/pre-Catholicism Europe, before Christianity reached Britain, wells were always seen as places of healing, portals between worlds where time & space thinned, sites of feminine priesthood (women as guardians and interpreters)..

Maryam was viewed as the human well through which divine life entered matter. A living parallel to the springs themselves. Where water rises from underground darkness into light and air, Mary allowed divine presence to rise from heaven into flesh.

When Christianity arrived without Rome, carried by traders, by refugees, by wandering mystics.. wells were re-consecrated and Christ was understood as the animating force in the water. Mary was understood as the womb that made that force receivable by human beings.

This is why Mother Mary shrines across Britain and Ireland are almost always tied to water. We see the same in France (Lourdes) and many places in Belgium where I am from. It’s a cosmological continuation of the living waters...

In the article we dive into:

Chalice Well: Avalon’s Maryam-heart

Let me give you a specific example, because abstract theology only goes so far. You need to be able to touch it…

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Another Seraphim news report delivered to you by the Golden Dragons..

This month’s Golden Dragon message came through as a continuation of what they have told us last month. It connects directly into the January energy update and the recent channeled guidance from Mother Mary, forming one consistent thread of “instruction around boundaries”, and identity refinement.

Many are feeling a strange mix right now: compression and clarity at the same time. Plans shifting unexpectedly. A sense that something is becoming visible, but not yet meant to be acted upon.

The dragons are directly addressing that in-between state, where old structures have loosened, intuition is coming back sharper.. but the nervous system hasn’t fully caught up yet.

Most of February is not reserved for decisive outward action. It is a month of recalibration, starting slowly.. and embodied integration. The Golden Dragons speak about pulling energy back from false timelines, false teachers, false versions of you that were not ever you to begin with..

– the collective identity refinement currently underway
– why restraint is essential right now so that you don’t “burn out” when Mercury goes into Retrograde.
– and why this phase is better understood as an internal resurrection rather than a public rebirth

And a tiny feline message for you that connects to all of this:

The full channeled message, along with reflection questions for homework, is available below for Maryam Members. If you’ve been feeling both grounded and unsettled, clear yet hesitant, this message will help you understand why, and how to stay steady inside it.

Here are a few great quotes from the channeled message:

If you want to listen to the complete transmission, the full recording is available for paid subscribers below.

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Another month and another message from Mother Mary..

The questions that we dive into in this article together with her are the following:

“How do I even begin to explain what is going on to people who are just waking up? The subject is so vast, it can be overwhelming, and I don’t know where to start to give people hope that unity is coming.”

This was part of a longer question, but I’m going to divide this into a few different questions.

Part 2 of that question was “The relentless darkness causes despair and psychic fatigue, and I struggle to explain how I have hope, and that having an open heart and using intentions can create your reality. And that we are not alone in this, we have the support of the cosmos, and we are all ascending. Does someone who has never heard of this stuff know where to start?”

Another question is “How did you continue to mother the world after losing the one you mothered?”

These monthly messages are channeled from Mother Mary, spoken in response to questions that many people are holding right now.

We go into what is unfolding in our world today, spiritual awakening, the sense of disconnection people are feeling from friends, family, and familiar structures, and the persistent question of how to explain what is happening without sounding ungrounded or overwhelming those who are just beginning to wake up. (spoiler.. you don’t over-explain)

The first message is for those who feel called to support others through awakening, yet struggle with knowing where to begin. Mary talks about the loneliness of seeing more than others around you, and the importance of meeting each person exactly where they are, heart to heart, without forcing them to “be at your level”.

Next she speaks about devotion after loss, to continuing to love and serve life even when grief, separation, and deep disillusionment are overwhelming you. she talks about how love widens through contrast, and how remaining heart-centered in times of violence, confusion, and collapse is a conscious choice.

These are not teachings meant to be followed as belief systems, nor are they meant to convince. They are channeled reflections from a human Mary who has gone through her ascension journey from the human journey..

This Maryam Magazine is my way of offering her teachings in a form that is accessible, grounded, and relevant to the exact times we are living in.

And every month, she will speak to the parts of us that are in the middle of our own crucifixion-and-resurrection cycles.

Every first week of the month, I’ll be releasing a channeled Q&A article with Mother Mary here on Substack as part of The Maryam Magazine. Each message comes with a reflection sheet you can work with throughout the month, a simple “homework” page to track how her guidance feels in your body, what it brings up, and how you can apply it to your everyday life and your own modern Mystery School initiations.

Some beautiful quotes from Mary’s channeled Q&A article today are:

"Tune in to what you can relate to inside of your own experience. And little by little, bring yourself back to the point where you were them, where you were in their shoes, and imagine what would be the thing that you would have loved to hear at this moment."

"Tune into God by tuning into your heart and connecting directly to the other person’s heart. And you will know exactly what it is that God requires you to do in that moment, what God requires you to say in that moment.”

[about the Mother-Son dynamic as Maryam & Yeshua] "This was a choice that we both made, to experience contrast, extreme highs and extreme lows in one lifetime, to fully anchor in Divine Love in human form, in a Mother-Child connection, so that we could anchor this into the planet, so that it could have a ripple effect on everyone, and everything that lives."

"We have gone through this in many cycles, in many different star systems and galaxies. It is an alchemical process where we are deliberately choosing to feel all of the pain and alchemize it through the strength of our hearts, through the love that we will always receive from God, and that we can always give to others from God."

You can find her full Q&A article below.

To see the entire monthly structure of The Maryam Magazine, go here:

You can find this month’s Q&A+”homework” with Mary below.

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Guest article contributed by

This is a collaboration message between Yeshua and Joseph. Treat it as a unified transmission from the Father & Son, with help from their Soul family. Channeled by .

Matthew 10:1

“And Yeshua called his twelve disciples and he gave them authority over unclean spirits to cast them out, and to heal every disease and every sickness.”

Luke 6:13

“And when it was day, he called his disciples and chose twelve of them, whom he named Apostles.”

Mark 3:14

“And he appointed twelve to be with him and to send them to preach”

“Life begins with a Sun. Not a SON, a Sun. This Sun is a trinity. This trinity is the one infinity who gives birth to itself. A harmony between this infinity’s unique components is required for birthing of itself. If there is no harmony, there is no birth. But that harmony must be complete. It is whole. It is balanced to utter divine perfection.

When you look at that sun, do you feel an energy of masculine, feminine, or combined? A Sun does not automatically mean it is a S-O-N. But as we currently know the holy trinity, it is considered to be the Father, the Sun, and the Holy Spirit. Many people now claim the Holy Spirit represents a genderless being of both mother and father. Yet when we look at that picture, we still see a piece missing. Where is the spot for Feminine / Mother?

The Father = masculine. The Son = masculine. Holy Spirit = combined gender. Something is off here. Do you feel it? WHERE IS SHE!?

A Mother is the birther. But she has no specific place that is for her and her alone on this original trinity? And yet, she is the one who gives birth to the “Son of God” you know as the figure named Jesus.”

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As we transition from January into February, the energy shifts from a two‑gear process of cleaning and clearing into a month of gradual clarification and conscious choice.

In January we were asked to refine and review, and February continues this cycle with greater ease. We begin to see our path more clearly, yet patience and grounding are still required: intuitive insights may come quickly, but it isn’t time to rush.

Through this month we are encouraged to stay present, connect with nature, listen to inner guidance, and gently prepare for a more decisive and outwardly focused March.

What’s covered in the 46‑minute energy update

• Reflection on January’s “two gears” and how February repeats the cleaning/refining cycle but with more clarity and ease.

• Recognizing that visions and goals become clearer early in February, yet frustration can arise if we try to run before it’s time; we are urged to sit with insights and allow clarity to build.

• Questions about ego versus authenticity, where we dim ourselves, where we perform for validation, and where we genuinely want to be seen.

• A shift to emotional sensitivity and intuition, making this a perfect time for inner work, creative projects and tuning into feelings.

• Encouragement to connect with nature, walks, mindful eating, working with water, planting seeds, and paying attention to the body to relieve stress and gain creative insight.

• Around the second and third week, it becomes time to choose; start making small changes and discussing plans with trusted people, while remaining patient and grounded.

• Identifying emotional patterns that no longer serve your mission; refining communication and relationships; viewing Mercury retrograde not as an enemy but as a chance to review and adjust.

• + a little gnostic lesson to end the transmission: a reflection on crucifixion and resurrection as personal transformational events, aligning your will with divine will, releasing attachment to a limited identity.

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So many of you have been telling me about animals showing up..

In dreams, on walks, or just this feeling of something nearby. Not scary. Just... there. Like a friend you didn’t know you had in your energy field.

Perhaps you’ve always been drawn to a specific type of animal and you want to understand why?

Perhaps you have a pet, a dog, cat or any other animal, and they are like a soul-friend and you know there is a deep connection there..

You feel something but can’t quite put your finger on it..

January’s had this quality to it. It’s been coming up a lot in my posts, energy updates, and channeled messages. Everything feels like it’s in that in-between, liminal space. Not quite clear, but not unclear either. Just being in it.. And being asked to trust and be ok with not knowing all the details yet.

Being here-now. That is what animals are experts at!

So that’s exactly the energy behind these animal guide portraits.

They’re not here to make you figure anything out or decide something big. They’re just... a way of seeing what’s already here, they can sometimes see, from their higher, or lower, or different perspective.. what it is that we can not see yet from our human perspective.

That is why I love working with animals, whether they are in my animal sessions, or as spirit animals. They are always here with important messages about inner Gnosis. About presence, there’s so much wisdom to be found in the animal kingdom, in telepathically communicating with our animal allies.

It’s about letting what’s already connected to you become visible. you have many spirit guides on your team, many of them are non-human!

Many of them are in fact animal(ish)

We have our earth animals, but there are so many variations to those animals that live in all of creation, in the multiverse. There are many galactic animal species too that support us on this human awakening journey.

So what we are doing with these portraits is that we are creating a visual.. We’re giving a face to the animal guide that has been with you already..

translating this energy signature into something tangible, physical that you can hold, frame, put on your wall.

So, what actually is this?

An animal guide portrait is a custom manually painted artwork I create by tuning into the animal that steps forward for you. I listen for how this particular guide wants to be seen. Its posture, its presence, its energy. what the message is for you. And you may already have a connection with specific animals, these may be animals that keep coming into your awareness, a life long fashination with for instance dolphins or whales! (in my case)

Or you’ve always been a cat or a dog person and you know there’s more to your pet at home, you wish to see their multidimensional face on paper, because you feel that they are guiding you in more ways than being the little rent-free fluffball that lives at your house, they’re your soulmate and you know there’s more to that connection.

People have told me these portraits feel familiar. They are meeting someone they already knew, they just hadn’t seen them yet.

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Maybe we’ve already done an animal communication session together in the past, or maybe you’ve been thinking about booking one but haven’t quite taken that step yet..

They’re a beautiful way to carry the energy of our work together forward, something visual and tangible you can return to.

More information on the animal allies Live calls can be found here

For members of the Maryam Magazine, I’ve opened an extra invitation around these animal guide portraits.. one that reflects the intimacy and ongoing nature of that space.

If you’re a member, you’ll find the details and a significantly reduced rate below. And if you’re not, this may be one of those moments where you’ve been thinking of joining and you have felt guided to a few times, and now may be the time to take that step!

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